June 3rd, 2003

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The waiting game

Time moves so slowly while waiting for work.

I've opened up a Word doc that I've name "RandomWritings," figuring that, as long as I'm stuck here, I might as well write.

You see how well this is going.

Still, I like the concept, so I'll keep that file open and drop in if inspiration should strike. Have to remember to email the file to myself at the end of the night so that I can copy it to my iBook and add it to my other writings.
  • Current Music
    I Will Dare--The Replacements--Let It Be
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Well, that's a nice change

A quick turn job came in while I was waiting for the jobs due later today to get on the board. Finished up the day with a nice bit of work to make the time spin along quickly. Just a few more minutes before I start my ride home.

The good folks at weather.com say that it's about 52 degrees outside, which should make for a brisk ride, we'll see if the wind (NNW at 6 mph) will make any appreciable difference in this direction.
  • Current Music
    New York Girls--Dust Rhinos--Sociable
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Mastery day 8—Blame

Today's topic is about taking responsibility for one's actions and the effects they have. The author encourages us to accept that much of what happens "to" us is, in fact, happening because we are generating it. Whether our frame of mind puts us into a space where those things are allowed to happen or we act in ways to sabotage ourselves, if there is any blame to be laid, it is to be laid at one's own doorstep.

I partially agree with the author. I'm all over the New-Agey belief defining reality concept as well as the psychological effects of thought patterns influencing behavior. I know, for example, that the two times I've been fired from a job, I was actively expressing dislike for those jobs; in effect, asking to be fired.

The author does throw me a caveat: there are some things that just happen and that are not anyone's fault. The fax machine breaking isn't anyone's fault. So the whole of reality isn't hinging on my thoughts like George Orr in The Lathe of Heaven.

What I'm taking out of today's lesson is to, once again, keep an eye on one's thoughts and the effect they can have on my mood, activities and those around me. I do pretty well maintaining a positive attitude in my daily life and work to infect that attitude on Ericka and others around me. I have found myself being less positive at work over the last week; so I'll keep an eye on that and work to make my thinking more positive all the time.
  • Current Music
    I'm A Rebel Trying to Govern Myself--Rory McLeod--Mouth to Mouth (Disc 1)