May 27th, 2003

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Mastery day 3

Today is about whipping cynicism into submission.

I think I largely have this one licked, but backslide frequently. I am, overall, a positive person. I'm the one that got Ericka started saying, out loud in combination with throwing her arms over her head, "Wheeeee!" whenever some silly thing requires yet something else from her (like another drug to take, or form to fill out or some other little thing that could be an annoyance).

In terms of my goal of becoming a writer, however, I tend to sell myself short easily. I start writing and then get lost in the process. I lose the idea that what I'm writing has worth. I'm a perfectionist enough to want to have it perfect the first time around so I get bogged down in revisions.

So the exercise today is to look at what is making me cynical and pretend they are someone else's problems. Then I am to put a positive spin on those experiences, turning negative into positive. So here goes:

I don't set aside enough time to write every day.
I complete several tasks every day. I can be depended upon to fulfill obligations. I care for others.

My finances don't allow me to be frivolous.
Frugality can be frivolous. I have a lot of fun that doesn't cost me a dime. Extravagances are better appreciated when they are infrequent. Earning from writing is the ultimate combination of frivolity and fun with responsibility.

I never finish what I start writing.
My ideas overflow and spill out onto the page quickly. Finishing is a matter of discipline and can be learned, can become a habit. I've finished three days of exercises, so the premise is patently untrue.
  • Current Music
    Eye On The Ball--The Folk Footballers--The First Fifteen
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Excellent game

Got to the Twins game this evening with my steady buddy, Jim. He's the default "going to the game and want company" guy and we are, so far, 5-0 in games we've watched together at the dome. I'm 6-1 overall, the Twins losing the game I took my buddy Bob to.

This game, the Twins won, as you might have gathered. It was a pitcher's dual through the eighth inning with the Twins leading 1-0 through seven. Top of the seventh, the A's scored two to take the lead and added another at the top of the eighth.

Bottom of the eighth, Dustan Mohr got on board with a one-out double. A. J. Pierzynski, who was the object of boos when in Oakland last week due to taking pride in his game-winning home run when the Twins played Oakland for the division title last year, was hit by a pitch. While this sparked outrage from the fans, the benches were pretty cool about it and Bobby Kielty came to the plate as a pinch hitter representing the go-ahead run.

As if affected by instant karma, A's pitcher Barry Zito left a fastball up in the strike zone and Bobby took it deep. But it landed about six feet foul in the lower deck seats in left field. Bobby then worked up to a full count. The crowd was on its feat, the loudest I've seen the dome since the playoffs last year. Zito tried another fastball. Bobby connected and the place went nuts. A home run put the Twins up 4-3.

"Everyday" Eddie Guardado came in for the top of the ninth. He struck out two batters and got the third to lift a short fly to foul territory just past third base to end the game. All in all a very satisfying game.
  • Current Music
    Black and Tans--Standing Stones--Again